What the world will never take

TOTALLY FUCKED

2012-02-24T04:46:00.000+08:00

No time to blog, but this song says it all. ;D
Reallllllyyyyy love this song. It'll be so much better if we have a Singapore version of Spring Awakening Soundtrack!

PS. IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCH, YOU SHOULD TOTALLY GO CATCH IT NOW! BEFORE IT ENDS FOR GOOD.

2012-02-16T17:02:00.001+08:00

When you tell your friend a secret and she turns around to tell someone else...

I'll still be your friend but I probably be more careful with my words next time.

PS. IM GONNA CATCH UP ON PLL SOOONNNNNNN! <3

Just me being paranoid

2012-02-09T00:24:00.002+08:00

Have been studying about Intellectual Property and all. So am getting paranoid with the things I post here. Got include link below ah. Don't anyhow say I infringe copyright.:/ Just me bring paranoid.

Link: http://musicmystique.wordpress.com/2012/01/29/7-amazing-thoughts-so-true/

2012-01-24T16:41:00.002+08:00

Fucking hate CNY. Nothing in CNY is making me comfortable.

Here it goes again

2012-01-23T17:09:00.001+08:00

I have no idea since when, but I dislike cny. Maybe because it's awkward all over the place. Maybe because it's 客套话 everywhere. Maybe because I don't enjoy talking with people I'm not comfortable with. Or maybe it started when I had to make choices between dad and mum.

Or maybe just maybe...

What's the point of a reunion when your family ain't complete.

Wickedly Kind

2012-01-16T22:04:00.001+08:00

Heh heh. A photo with David Harris - male lead cast of Wicked, the Musical.

Needless to say. Wicked is awesome and perfect. Well, except for the fact that Elphaba tripped at the last scene after she exit from the door 1 second before black out. She didn't fall, just tripped. Which is like a little flaw. BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER.

I feel like watching Wicked again! But it's too expensiveeeeeeeee. :(

This is my daily bread.

2012-01-11T17:25:00.001+08:00

Most people don't understand why I do what I do everyday. But if they don't understand now, they never will understand.

Ps. I still cannot find my pencil box and the most precious thing in it is not thumdrive but the ruler. ):

我要天上的星星

2011-12-15T03:29:00.001+08:00

这个世界上所有不快乐的人都因为他们不懂知足。

刚分手的：
你生命中少了一个不爱你的人，却多了一堆爱你的朋友还有一直陪着你的家人。心会痛但那是因为很爱过，至少你们相爱过不是吗？

生病的：
命运夺走你的健康但你还活着，还可以奋斗还可以有希望还在呼吸。这世界有多少人在意外中送命，还来不及告别，没有机会奋斗。活着不好吗？

厌倦生活的：
你对现在的生活不满意，因为那不是你要的，和想象中有落大的差距。但这不应该是埋怨的借口应该是更努力奋斗坚持的理由阿！只会埋怨却不肯改变，生活不会因此变得更好。至少我们的烦恼不是明天世界末日，不是战争，不是饥饿。日子不幸福吗？

我们可以不开心，但不能不快乐。这世界有那么多比我们不幸的人却活的多次多彩，不是因为他们不知足而是因为他们比我们更加珍惜活着的每一分每一秒，想充分的活着精彩过着每一刻。

天上的星星笑地上的人总是不能懂不能觉得足够

笑吧。开心时候，奋斗起来会更有精神，生活更充实，回忆更美丽，就算下一秒就会失去所有也绝对不会后悔！这样才会快乐。

And music's working for real now

2011-12-07T01:20:00.001+08:00

like finally.

321

2011-12-07T01:18:00.001+08:00

Actually, if you've been following my blog, you'll realize that I didn't finish my countdown.

If you're actually still wondering what the fuck I was counting down for, I was counting down to the end of my internship.

Yknow, when you start counting is when time starts to crawl, like cccccrrrrrawwwwwwwwlllllllllllllllllll likka snail and tortoise ultimate combo crawl. But after that I kinda got too busy to even log on to blogger during work to countdown. (Yes, I've been bloggin gduring work.:/) Don't learn. And don't go telling people also. Haha.

And now, it's back to school. Hmmm, I actually miss internship.

讓我罩著你 Let Me Look After You

2011-12-06T17:03:00.001+08:00

MP魔幻力量

詞曲：廷廷(MP魔幻力量)

是你讓勇敢燈火通明的跳動
怎麼忽然間心卻變的好閃爍
時間世氪星石超人不得不低頭
你的背影一腳踏進沙漏
被凋零淹沒

曾經傷害你 I'm sorry
濫用了叛逆 I'm sorry
也許有天你會你會忘記
忘了怎麼呼吸
但請你別忘了我很愛你

我會更努力為了你
你也要努力愛自己
少了你的夢中飛行我會很不甘心
從今以後什麼都別擔心
現在換我罩著你

好像從沒有真的陪你聊天過
雖然你總是想跟我聊些什麼
如果來不及還你同等的感動
如果還能為你做些什麼
請你聽我說

曾經傷害你 I'm sorry
濫用了叛逆 I'm sorry
也許有天你會你會忘記
忘了怎麼呼吸
但請你別忘了我很愛你

我會更努力為了你
你也要努力愛自己
少了你的夢中飛行我會很不甘心
從今以後什麼都別擔心

曾經傷害你 I'm sorry
濫用了叛逆 I'm sorry
也許有天你會忘記忘了怎麼呼吸
但請你別忘了我很愛你

我會更努力為了你
你也要努力愛自己
少了你的夢中飛行我會很不甘心
從今以後什麼都別擔心
現在換我罩著你
讓我罩著你
陪你一直走下去

It's you,who let the flame burned bravely.
Why, all of a sudden, my heart starts to flicker?
Superman admits defeat to time and krytonite.
Your shadow slips into the hourglass,
Drown and forgotten.
I'm sorry for hurting you.
I'm sorry for being rebellious.
Maybe one you'll forget,
Forget how to breathe,
But please don't forget that I love you.

I'll work harder for you.
You gotta love yourself more.
Without you in my dreams,it will not be fulfilling.
Don't have to worry from now on,
Let me look after you.

I think we've never really talked.
Even though you've been trying to start a conversation with me.
If it's too late to make you moved,
If I can still do anything,
Please listen to me.

I'm sorry for hurting you.
I'm sorry for being rebellious.
Maybe one you'll forget,
Forget how to breathe,
But please don't forget that I love you.

I'll work harder for you.
You gotta love yourself more.
Without you in my dreams,it will not be fulfilling.
Don't have to worry from now on,
Let me look after you.

I'm sorry for hurting you.
I'm sorry for being rebellious.
Maybe one you'll forget,
Forget how to breathe,
But please don't forget that I love you.

I'll work harder for you.
You gotta love yourself more.
Without you in my dreams,it will not be fulfilling.
Don't have to worry from now on,
Let me look after you.

Let me accompany you and look after you in your remaining life.

24 hours is not enough

2011-11-29T19:02:00.001+08:00

At 11pm.

I wannna watch tv.

Turned on tv and watch for 5 minutes.

I wanna read.

Switched off tv and read a book. Read for less than a page.

I wanna use laptop.

Left the book on my bed and turned on laptop.

And I fell asleep within 5 minutes.

Typical example of what I do when I'm tired but just refuse to sleep.

諾亞方舟 Noah's Ark

2011-11-28T17:23:00.001+08:00

詞:阿信 / 曲:瑪莎

再見草莓甜甜圈街角咖啡店落下雨點
再見黑白老照片回憶電影院埋進地面

再見我們初識的那個公園
那天是誰先吻了誰被誰遺忘的鞦韆
再見那麼多名車名錶名鞋
最後我們只能帶走名為回憶的花園

如果要告別如果今夜就要和一切告別
如果你只能打一通電話你會撥給誰

晚安鸚鵡和孔雀花豹和人類望著海面
晚安底片和唱片沉浮在浪間就像詩篇

晚安自由女神漂到華爾街
我們在甲板上摸到杜拜塔頂的塔尖
晚安海豚躍出西藏的屋簷
原來幻想中的這天會比幻想更唯美

還是要告別還是放棄海拔以下的世界
你會裝進什麼回憶紀念在行李裡面

終於要告別終於沒有更多的明天要追
你有什麼遺憾依然殘缺還沒有完美

當彗星燃燒天邊隕石像雨點
當輻射比陽光還要熾烈

當愛變得濃烈當每段命運更加壯烈
當永遠變成一種遙遠
當句點變成一種觀點
讓人類終於變成同類

勇敢的告別勇敢的向過去和未來告別
告別每段血緣身分地位聰明或愚昧

最後的告別最後一個心願是學會高飛
飛在不存在的高山草原星空和藍天

讓諾亞方舟航向了海平線
讓諾亞方舟航向了換日線
讓諾亞方舟航向了天際線
讓諾亞方舟航向了無限

Farewell, strawberry donuts,
Cafe at the corner. It's raining.
Farewell, black and white photos,
Cinemas, buried underground.

Farewell, to the park we first met,
To our first kiss and the forgotten swing.
Farewell, to all our branded cars, watches and shoes.
All we can bring is our garden of memories.

If we have to say goodbye,
If tonight we have to bid farewell,
If you can only make one last call,
Who will you call?

Goodnight, parrots and peacocks,
Leopards and humans. Looking at the sea.
Goodnight, films and records,
Floating in between waves, just like poems.

Goodnight, Statue of Liberty that has floated to Wall Street.
We can touch the peak of Burj Dubai from our deck.
Goodnight, dolpins leaping out from the roof of Tibet.
This day, turns out to be more beautiful than imagined.

Still, we gotta say goodbye.
Still, we gotta give up the world below sea level.
What kind of memories are you gonna pack in your luggage?

Finally, it's time to say goodbye.
Finally, there's no more tomorrow to chase.
How many of your dreams have not been fulfilled?
Or is not yet perfect?

When comet burns the sky, and it rains meteorite
When radiation is as blazing hot as the sun
When love becomes too strong
When every life becomes heroic
When forever becomes too far away
When period becomes philosophy
Humans finally are one and the same.

Bravely say goodbye.
Bravely bid farewell to our past and future.
Goodbye to all our family, status, identity,
Intelligence and ignorance.

Our last goodbye,
Our last wish is to learn how to fly.
Fly to the non-existant mountains, grassland,
Starry nights and sky

Let Noah's Ark sail towards horizon.
Let Noah's Ark sail towards date line.
Let Noah's Ark sail towards skyline.
Let Noah's Ark sail towards infinity.

EFF AY VEE YEE!

2011-11-28T17:22:00.001+08:00

ESS AY AXE

2011-11-25T10:33:00.001+08:00

PS. I finally realize yesterday that Sqiudward has only 6 tentacles. -,- Took me years.

AS YEE VEE YEE END!

2011-11-24T11:12:00.001+08:00

AN EYE END YEE!

2011-11-22T10:22:00.001+08:00

TEE EE END!

2011-11-21T16:30:00.001+08:00

Pluck yew!

2011-11-18T14:57:00.001+08:00

Came across something interesting.

It's so common to hear the phrase 'fuck you' now. Comes after everything short sentences, hides behind every little things. But do you know where it origin from?

Ever wonder why 'fuck you' is always accompanied by the middle finger?

Here's the answer.

supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

2011-11-16T11:46:00.001+08:00

I was searching dictionary.com for the meaning of a word and stumbled across this. The funny thing is it's in dictionary.com! I thought words like this should be found in urbandictionary instead. Hahaha!

And the definition:

adjective

(used as a nonsense word by children to express approval or to represent the longest word in English.)

a nonsense word meaning fantastic; also called supercalifragilistic

HAHAHA. Children, why do you wanna make your life difficult when there's a simpler word to use. HAHAHA.

So I learnt a new word today. Which I'll prolly forget the next minute.

需要点时间沉淀

2011-11-15T15:02:00.001+08:00

沉淀须要点时间沉淀时间须要久点 OH~太多事情在改变

Doomsday?

2011-11-11T09:38:00.001+08:00

I don't understand.

If people believe in the end of the world, what about God's promise to Noah that he will never destroy the earth again?

Ironically, most of those whom predicted the different doomsday were Christians or believed in God, and none of the predictions came true.

Did we forge the rainbow promise or is there something I'm not understanding here?

NOTICE NOTICE

2011-11-09T14:13:00.003+08:00

Sorry!

2011-11-07T20:03:00.001+08:00

For being such a horrible friend

For not going out as I promised today

For not keeping my promise.

For being lazy
For everything.

But mainly because I got not enough money left to last my whole week.
Sorry! >.<

单翅天使

2011-11-05T16:43:00.000+08:00

遇见你的那天下雨了
你转身的瞬间雨停了
我却看不见彩虹的微笑

如果雨中重逢是起点
圣诞夜就注定是终点
为何最后还是回到原点

我愿变成单翅天使永远守护你
就算遍体鳞伤也不在乎
身体沉睡嘴角会上扬

旋转木马爱上的爱情
怎么也追不上你脚步
越靠近爱情越看不见你

我要变成单翅天使陪在你身边
代替未来的他让你快乐
直到幸福出现带走你
直到找到你要的幸福

我们赢不了雨中相遇的诅咒
我们输给了命中注定的考验
最后我们还能再见吗

Inspired from 我们还能再见吗 by 吴若权.

知足

2011-11-01T14:07:00.000+08:00

怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能知道足够

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞

知足的快乐叫我忍受寂寞

Listen to this then listen to 星空. (:

星空

2011-11-01T02:12:00.004+08:00

摸不到的顏色是否叫彩虹
看不到的擁抱是否叫做微風
一個人想著一個人是否就叫寂寞

命運偷走如果只留下結果
時間偷走初衷只留下了苦衷
你來過然後你走後只留下星空

那一年我們望著星空
有那麼多的燦爛的夢
以為快樂會永久像不變星空陪著我

獵戶天狼織女光年外沉默
回憶青春夢想何時偷偷隕落
我愛過然後我沈默人海裡漂流

那一年我們望著星空
未來的未來從沒想過
當故事失去美夢美夢失去線索
而我們失去聯絡

這一片無言無語星空
為什麼靜靜看我淚流
如果你在的時候會不會伸手擁抱我

細數繁星閃爍細數此生奔波
原來所有所得所獲不如一夜的星空
空氣中的溫柔回憶你的笑容彷彿只要伸手就能觸摸

摸不到的顏色是否叫彩虹
看不到的擁抱是否叫做微風
一個人習慣一個人

這一刻獨自望著星空
從前的從前從沒變過
寂寞可以是忍受也可以是享受
享受僅有的擁有

那一年我們望著星空
有那麼多的燦爛的夢
至少回憶會永久像不變星空陪著我
最後只剩下星空像不變回憶陪著我

I love/hate you.

2011-11-01T01:52:00.001+08:00

People,
I have a confession to make.

I'm actually in a relationship.
For a very long time already.

I'm actually in a long term relationship with sunday.
It's a love/hate relationship.
It's complicated.

I'm also on good terms with saturday.
He's my machi. Buddy.

I always sleep early on Saturday,
so that I can hurry spend time with my sunday.
When I'm with Saturday,
I miss sunday so much,
Can't wait to see sunday tomorrow, I say.

Time flies when I'm with Sunday.
We were so happy when we met in the morning.
But we always fight at night.
Sunday doesn't wanna spend more time with me.

I suspect he's secretly in love with Monday.
Cos when we quarrel,
it's always about Monday.
How can I not suspect?

And when he feels like he's about to lose,
He'll call Monday out to help him,
cos I never won Monday.

Even so, I know Sunday will come back to me.
When I'm with Saturday,
Sunday gets jealous,
and he'll ask me out again.

I'm pretty confident about that.
I love/hate Sunday.

我不好也不坏

2011-10-21T14:22:00.001+08:00

不特别出众我只是敢不同我的人生就是一错再错错完了再重头如果放弃掉一些活的更轻松我却不再是我至少到最后我还有咸鱼不腐烂的自尊

2011-10-21T14:16:00.001+08:00

Western has beatlles, we have mayday.

2011-10-15T02:40:00.000+08:00

A little something to share.

Listen. Watch. Have a good laugh and hold no grudge kay.

Friday afternoon

2011-10-14T14:38:00.001+08:00

Lawyer: hey. Later help me do garnisheed for AAA Kay. I'll tell you what to do.

5 minutes later
Me: I go toilet come back then find you.
Lawyer: for what?
Me: garnishee?
HAHAHAHA.

5 minutes later, in her room.
Lawyer: *looks for file* did you see AAA's file.
Me: oh Yar uh. It's with me. HAHAHA.

想要征服的世界

2011-10-11T09:09:00.001+08:00

始终都没有改变那地上无声蒸发我的泪黑暗中期待光线生命有一种绝对等待我请等待我靠近我再拥抱我不要走请不要走直到约定融化成笑颜直到我看见生命的

3.30AM

2011-10-11T03:32:00.002+08:00

Gosh. Stayed up til now unpacking my room. Like finally. And it's all because I wanted to re-watch Mayday's DNA Concert and I had to dig it all the way out from one of the boxes and I had no idea which one it was in. What a motivation they can be. Miss watching their concert live so badly! >.< Who wanna watch their next concert with me!? When they comes.

Doing the right thing at the right time

2011-10-10T19:54:00.000+08:00

Whenever I have inspiration to blog, I cannot cos I'd be working. And the blogger app refuses to load on my phone.

Now that I have time and wanna blog, I have no freaking inspiration.

So I'll just share this song with you guys. My favorite band writes the awesome-est songs in the world. xD <3 Hope you'd like it like I do!

2011-10-01T22:03:00.002+08:00

Abortion

2011-09-25T23:03:00.003+08:00

Hi, Mommy.

I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

... ... ... You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.

Two more eyes that will never see.

Two more hands that will never touch.

Two more legs that will never run.

One more mouth that will never speak.

If you’re against abortion, repost.

For money?

2011-09-20T01:46:00.001+08:00

So my friend decided to remind me that my internship pay is actually damn low after I tried so hard not to think about it.

I gotta work for 20 days, assuming a month has 4 weeks, and I get a pay of $440. Compare it to my freelance job, I just need to do 2 camps to earn $400. I MISS DOING CAMPS TERRIBLY!

But I still gotta give credits to the firm I'm attached to thou! I'm currently enjoying still, cos I am exposed to different things everyday and I'm learning a lot! Makes office job not as horrible as I imagined it to be. Of course, camps are still better. Hehehe.

I won't say I can't wait for SIP to end, rather, I can't wait to do camps again! I miss my outdoor life very very very very very much!

Short-lived friendship

2011-09-09T18:36:00.001+08:00

To all my dear campers who tried adding me on facebook,

and if you managed to find my blog,

I'm so so sorry for not being able to accept your requests. They're flooding, but I can't accept. It's our policy, hope you understand. Nevertheless, camps with you guys has been awesome! Especially my last 2 camps, I had a really awesome time with you all. Let's hope we meet again someday!

'Til we meet again! :D

Exactly why

2011-08-29T17:34:00.000+08:00

you shouldn't talk on the phone when you're in the toilet.

I was in the public toilet and had just sat down, a voice from the next cubicle said

"Hi! how are you ?"

Embarrassed, I said, "I'm doing fine".

The voice said "So what are you up to ?".

I said, "Just doing the same as you, sitting here!".

From next door, "Can I come over?".

Annoyed, I said " rather busy right now".

The voice said, "Listen, I will have to call you back, there's an idiot next door answering all my questions".

It did not happen to me. Just clarifying. (:

2:35:47

2011-08-28T20:10:00.003+08:00

I did it. (:

But I'm walking likka cripple now, and that would probably last for a few days.

In a heartbeat.

2011-08-11T01:47:00.002+08:00

If I were to picture the events that I was involved in this year, and there are lines separating each, picture me in a vacuum space now. Cos that's how I feel, empty. It's like a lifeline which shoots upwards to the very peak and suddenly someone hit pause. You feel like you're hanging there. Get what I mean? Like all of a sudden, something that seems like a routine comes to an end. It's like how we all feel after watching Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 2. That's how I feel now.

This year's NDP was an entirely different experience from last year's and 2009's. And like all Singaporeans, we compare, I compare. Initially, there were stuffs that I don't like about in this year's parade. Let's not go into details about such stuffs. And then you had to wake up early for parade rehearsals and all. Okay, maybe not as early as last 2 years cos I don't have to report at HTA this year, but the fact that you have to wake up in the morning on a saturday is a torture. But face it, everything has flaws. Nothing is perfect. We just have to learn to face it and look from a different perspective.

When I woke up in the morning, I tweeted that I ain't feeling the National Day atmosphere. That was awfully true. The only thing that differentiated that day from other rehearsals is that it wasn't Saturday. Well, I guess the weekly rehearsals kinda made me used to the routine of going to F1 paddock once a week that it wasn't so much of a difference from the actual day. You might say that schools celebrate National Day on 8 August so I should have already gotten the vibe but I had a test that day so I couldn't really be bothered about what my school is celebrating.

It wasn't until when we were at our form up point getting ready, then it hit me that this was it. The audience at the gallery were real. Not Primary 5 kids anymore. ~~Majority of the primary 5 kids used the parade segment as toilet break anyway. I was guilty of it too. Haha.~~ I had to keep telling myself that this was it. No more after that. I had never been so conscious of my every little action until today, because the audience were so real. It's like they're gonna judge you if one finger goes out of place. And you'll have no chance to make it up again. Sounds like I'm paranoid uh, but I'm not.

The self conscious slowly turns into reluctance. Not entirely reluctance. It's a little bit of tired, a little bit of accomplishment, a little bit of enjoyment and then it was all coming to an end. That mixed up feelings. And it wasn't so until I had time to change out of my uniform. When everyone left. It became emptiness.

But anyways, there were still lotsa familiar faces around this year, friends whom only see each other once a week for 4 months a year, all working towards the same goal. There were new faces as well.
So many people, so many jokes, so much fun, so much laughter, so much hardwork, so much sweat, so much scoldings. So much so many, I cannot count.

:The Contingent:

You guys were awesome. Trust me, awesome is an understatement for you all. Although I scolded you guys quite a number of times, and said stuffs that probably got you discouraged afterwards, but you guys still did well on the actual day! I'm impressed. There are times that were hard to get by, especially when we rehearsing under the damn hot sun, especially the march (for you guys) back to Paddock which always seem so near yet so far. And the never ending questions that you all have which sometimes gets on my nerves. xP But thats why you are all so cute rightttt. The epic moment when you all realized that we recited the pledge a phrase too fast at MBS, during preview. Despite all, I believe we all had fun on the parade and during city march. How often do you get to march on the road in the opposite direction, go against the traffic lights and not get fine in front to Traffic Police, and cross the ERP without paying?

:Trainers:

(with PC and Parade RSM in the middle)

Without you guys, I cannot imagine what would happen to the contingent! Haha. Some of you had to wake up before the sun rise and travel all the way to HTA. I feel you! I thoroughly enjoyed the times we spent together! Our Harry Potter movie for some of us, dinners together at AMK, the card making outing, the surprise planning - the day we behaved like thieves. Remember the Pizza Hut dinner, we were so tired that we sat at the steps next to the bus stop out Pizza Hut!? Thanks for all these memories. Thanks for helping to control the kids, guiding them during rehearsals, looking out for casualties and accompanying them and every single thing you all did for the contingent. Oh, not forgetting all the jokes that we share behind the scenes. xP

:Sock Wei (CC);Lian Yu (POC):

We had soooooo much fun together! The girls' talk, or maybe gossips, the movie. Lian Yu, the morning meet-ups every week and dinner after that. The herbal tea you bought for me and everyone else, btw, the aloe vera drink was nice. The moments when you drank what you're not supposed to. Sock Wei, the fun we had at backstage, especially with our flag uh. Haha. And the scolding session which we had to discuss first before scolding. That was epic, I swear. Right in front of the kids somemore. Haha. Thanks for everything you did for the contingent and for me. It wouldn't have been fun and fulfilling without you around!

:Our Marshall (KK):

NAI NIANGGGGGG! I know I'm gonna regret saying this, but you're easily one of the best marshall I've seen. Hahaha, kidding lar uh. YOU WERE AWESOME, I swear. So much that we made a card and bought you a cake. You're the first, I think? You also broke the record of being the first marshall who dares to argue with Lian Yu. Hahaha. I'll remember all the jokes and moments we shared, especially those stupid things we did at backstage. Thanks for treating the cadets like your little kids, treating them with snacks and sweets. Thanks for all the errands you did for us, all the little little stuffs you did for the contingent. Really appreciate it alot! Thanks for the sweets and water bottle especially! Love it! I'm goona use it for my school! (: WONT FORGET YOUR SMALL SMALL TINY WEENY EYES.

:Terence & Basil(Not in photo):

Thanks for the Gobstopper and all the twitter spammings. Thanks for all your effort in publishing the magazines for us all and all the nonsense arguments we had on twitter.

And some other friends and acquaintances in the parade. It's heartwarming how strangers from everywhere come together to celebrate our nation's birthday!

:Parade Commander - Fahmi Sir; Parade RSM - Jennifer Ma'am:

The two important key appointment holders in the parade. Fahmi Sir has NPCC background which is the reason why NPCC was featured in his interview for Suria news. And Jennifer Ma'am is one cool person! First female Parade RSM. How cool is that!?

:SPF GOH Contingent Commander - Hee Keong Sir:

If you watched CLIF and one of the SPF advertisement and is observant enough, you'll be able to recognize him. Awesome and friendly guy! Great to know him in NDP. (;

:Row A Air Force - Chun Fui:

I'm always proud to tell people that he's my senior in BDS, Head Prefect in 2007! When I first became a student leader, he was my "teacher". I am who I am now, thanks to him!

:Navy GOH - Eric and Derek:

TP friends! One from iguides and one from RELIEZ. Fun people to be with! Well, that's how a TP student is, HIGHHH!

:Air Force GOH - Zhan Yong:

Don't know what to say about him. HAHAHA. My good friend, always hanging out with our clique at Ubin if not for NDP trainings. Hehehe.

:Red Cross Contingent Commanders:

Lead By Example

2011-08-08T12:46:00.000+08:00

Mummy woke up, walked to my room and asked if I got school today. Then walked back to her room and continues sleeping.

I wake up, walk to my phone to snooze my alarm. Then walk back to my bed to continue sleeping.

A classic example of leading by example. (:

Business Strategy

2011-08-04T20:57:00.000+08:00

Came across this on my friend's facebook.

Dad: I want you to marry a girl of my choice.
Son: No
Dad: The girl is Bill Gates' daughter.
Son: Then okay.

Dad goes to Bill Gates.
Dad: I want your daughter to marry my son.
Bill Gates: No.
Dad: My son is the CEO of the World Bank.
Bill Gates: Then okay.

Dad goes to the President of the World Bank.
Dad: Appoint my son as the CEO of ur bank.
President:No.
Dad: He is the son-in-law of Bill Gates.
President: Then okay.

Oh welllll.....

I feel like giving up

2011-08-02T22:45:00.000+08:00

Because no matter how much actions taken against discrimination, it still happens everyday.

Because no matter how many preach to treat everyone fairly, no one will be treated equally.

Because sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you still couldn't make it.

Because the more you care, the more you screw up.

I know you dislike me and thinks I'm selfish. I'm glad to tell you the feelings are mutual. You said I was selfish when I was still considering my choices between which firms to choose, but well, I had the right to consider, I believe. You totally made me don't feel like going for your tutorials and studying for exams cos no matter how hard I try now, it'd be no use. You totally screw up my hopes of pulling up my gpa.

I wanted so much to apply for scholarship, and I wanted so much to have the scholarship so that I could study overseas. The situation was bad enough for me cos results was not ideal, but now, ha, it'll be worse than before. How's that? Thank you so much.

But then again, I don't feel like giving up just yet. I wanna prove you wrong. Maybe miracles might happen?

joke of my life

2011-07-30T03:53:00.000+08:00

NAPFA today. After 3 years of no PE, you have a Physical Test! And I was aiming for Gold. But noooooo, there has to be Standing Board Jump. I didn't fail that, but got an E, but what's the pointttttt, no more gold. And that was like my 2nd station, totally affected my remaining stations and 2.4km run.

And when 2.4km comes, no mood to run anymore. So I had a slow start, like super slow. I spent 9 minutes running 1.2km! :/// But I still passed. But then againnnnn. ): Disappoint manx.

Anyways, we had this piece of paper which we had to fill in and there was HEIGHT and weight. So I happily filled in 165.0cm for my height. I have to say I was rushing, and wasn't really thinking. And submitted the paper. Went back to sit with other law students.

A: Eh, must fill in height and weight ah? I don't know sia.
Me: Yar. Just anyhow estimate lar, thats what they said.
A: What you put for your height?
Me: *confidently* 165 lor.
THEN she gave me that super weird stare.
Me: OH SHITTTT. I wrote 165! I'm only 155! Damnnnn.

Oh, how desperate I am to be 165.

the 'John'

2011-07-14T22:56:00.004+08:00

I was bathing and thinking. And I had nothing better to think but to imagine what exactly is inside the water plumbing system that and how complicated it was to connect every single household's drainage system down to each block and ultimately directed to god knows where!

And I realized that, damn, if it weren't for all this system, we would be bathing above a toilet full of shit! We might need to walk don't know how many thousand miles to fetch water before we even bath. And we ain't gonna spend 40 minutes in it to scrub ourselves spick and span! We gotta thank the inventor for that man!

But before we thank him, we gotta know who he is! So I googled here and there. (:

Inventor: Sir John Harrington

This guy is a Member of Parliament in the olden days! Just that it's not called that way in England! Haha. He's one of the member of Queen Elizabeth I's Court. A writer and translator, don't ask me what languages, I've got no idea.

He invented the first flushing toilet in the 16th century and was knighted as Knight of the Bath by King James I. Which is how the toilet got the name BATHroom. Interesting stuff we got here. Haha.

(Source: http://ezinearticles.com/?Sir-John-Harrington---Inventor-of-The-John&id=3570402)

And then we have this guy: Thomas Crapper

This guy did a load of works on improving the flushings of the toilet and the innovation and designs and all. He won a number of plumbing innovations. Kinda like a plumbing genius.To me, he had invented half of the toilet we're using today, although he was never knighted. Haha.

(Source: http://urbanlegends.about.com/od/factoid1/p/thomas_crapper.htm)

Run or die.

2011-07-13T19:58:00.000+08:00

I've only ran for 5km today,
and I barely survived!

Y'know, now I'm not really bothered about my timing for the upcoming run,
Cos I don't even know if I can complete it!
Oh dearrrrrr. ):

I might just be a genius.

2011-07-13T00:39:00.001+08:00

Finally got the comment thing done! Now let's modify this shit.

单身公主相亲记8

2011-07-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

Cinderella is the most popular fairytales.
Being a good match is the most realistic marriage.
And that's why fairy tales don't happen in real life.

Yet, certain part of the fairytales reflects life.
Cinderella is fated to be looked down upon,
If not for the glass shoe,
The prince would not have bothered.

Bet your life, don't regret.

2011-07-08T19:04:00.000+08:00

I was at the junction of a dang busy road in town after my interviews waiting to cross the road at the pedestrian crossing.

And this man, thank god for his quick reflex and agile legs, and him being a young adult crossed the road before the green man came.
Now, thank god that the car was not driving at the speed which it's not suppose to, that driver was alert enough to horn him.

Imagine if the man is a old man and had difficulty walking? Mati, die.

We always say people don't cherish their stuffs until they lose them. Is it gonna happen to us, human, also? Are we gonna wait until we lose our lives before we regret. Can we even feel remorse by then?

单身公主相亲记7

2011-07-07T20:31:00.002+08:00

Orpheus spoke into the mirror:
If you peel an apple in front of the mirror,
At midnight of a full moon,
And the apple skin does not break,
You'll be able to see your lover in the mirror.

And if you light a candle after that,
You can see the person you love most with the apple skin.

I want to keep peeling the apple skin,
So that I can see my beloved guy forever.

I hate being a girl.

2011-07-07T17:00:00.001+08:00

Cause we always have these irrational emotions that I don't even understand.

checklist

2011-07-06T00:43:00.000+08:00

CPA Tutorial - Not done.

APEL Reflection - Not done.

CrimPro Project - Half done.

MLOCT - Not done.

Translate to simple english - die.

Still got time to blog and all ah.

When I was just a little girl, I asked my mother, what will I be?

2011-07-05T01:14:00.000+08:00

My group mates were talking about their future halfway through project meeting today. They were all so certain of what they wanna do and exactly which uni and course they wanna take. Except for me.

I gotta start doing my homework man.I cannot lag behind, not knowing what I wanna do with my life.

Let's start with what I wanna be in future. Well, I'm not so sure anymore...

单身公主相亲记6

2011-07-03T01:57:00.000+08:00

Every girl has their dream wedding;
The beautiful decorations,
The pretty wedding dress,
And everyone's blessing.

That ordinary girl would turn into
The most beautiful princess in her wedding.

I hope that,
Every girl would become
The most beautiful princess in their wedding.
I hope that,
When it's my turn,
I would be the most beautiful princess too.

hello?

2011-07-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

All I can do now is wait.
Wait for the phone to ring.
Wait for the unknown number.
Wait for the news, good news I hope.

All I can do now is pray.
Pray at 11:11.
Pray before I sleep.
Pray whenever my phone rings.
Pray until the call arrive, for good news.

Though there is nothing I can do now,
I can't help but worry.
Maybe I should have did better,
Maybe I'm just being paranoid.

But anyways, they probably won't call for the next 2 days. :/
Omg-ness, this waiting is killing me softly.

wait for durian to drop on your head k.

2011-06-29T20:36:00.000+08:00

It's funny how some people keeps asking you to plan outings. And when you finally do so, they tell you this not free, that cannot confirm. Then when you ask them when they free, they tell you don't know. And if you ask them to plan, after a lifetime, you also never hear from them.

PS. It's durian season babey!

THE EASIEST THING YOU CAN FIND IN THIS WORLD IS EXCUSES.

2011-06-27T03:06:00.003+08:00

Just saying.

单身公主相亲记5

2011-06-26T01:37:00.000+08:00

"Motherhood" ain't the worst tragedy,
Waking up and realizing everything's changed is.
'Caught between life and death' ain't the saddest line,
'Starting a relationship you can't handle' is.

No matter how much we have been hurt,
We must not give up,
Because there has to be a Mr. Right,
Waiting for the opportunity to meet us,
Regardless that his appearance might be weird or surprising.

'Motherhood' is the English title for 孔雀东南飞. It is a classic marriage tragedy that has been told since the Han Dynasty.

单身公主相亲记4

2011-06-24T17:51:00.002+08:00

Legend says:
Anything that is dropped into the Piedra River,
Would turn into stones and make the riverbed.

I realized when I was packing our stuffs, that
I can recall every single moment spent with you,
Yet, we've become total strangers.

Piedra River is nowhere to be found
Therefore, I can't sit by the river and weep;
Can't let my tears sink into the river.

单身公主相亲记3

2011-06-22T23:14:00.003+08:00

Living in a city full of buildings,
And with a love that has already gone,
Crying is useless.

Love still exist no matter where I am,
Maybe it's blocked by the grey clouds,
Or maybe it bypassed me when I was unsure.

I cannot see you, yet I look forward to doing so
Hoping that you'll give me warmth

My Weekend "Gotaway"

2011-06-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

I was suppose to update this last month so as you can see, 'gotaway'.

All I can say is Kukup would have been much much more beautiful than it is now if they were to cherish the sea. It's beautiful how during low tide, the seabed is exposed to us, yet we could see nothing (except mudskippers, a few reallyyyyy huge ones and rats). Imagine the things that would stayed there if kukup is clean? It hurts to see the sea so polluted, the authority should do something immediately man. Or the nature will die one day.

Anyways, gotta know these awesome friends during the trip. So I already knew one of them cos we've been to a same course when we were still in Secondary School. And they were all from a neighbour school, bedok view. Haha. Small world indeed.

单身公主相亲记2

2011-06-21T01:17:00.004+08:00

Not everyone will find their soulmate
Just like not all angels have a pair of wings.
We are all fallen angels with only one wing,
The other is broken.
Therefore, we're destined to suffer pain.
Angels that fly don't feel pain,
But they don't know bliss either,
Because they never experience pain.

单身公主相亲记1

2011-06-20T14:49:00.000+08:00

Came across this Chinese drama. I find the opening cool so I'm intending to upload it all. (: Here's the opening for the first episode!

Ps. Added translations below for non-chinese readers. (:

When I was young,
Parents banned us from being too intimate with guys,
For we're too young to be involve in a relationship,
Our studies will be affected.
I used to envy those couples who can be together,
Gazing stars and watch time passes before them.

Now that I've grown,
Drew distance between guys,
Parents nag for us to get married.
After being around with different people,
I slowly understand that
some road are meant to be walked alone,
No matter how lonely it can be.

I'm Fine, Really.

2011-05-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

You know, when you see someone whom you haven't met in awhile you'd ask "How are you?" or "How have you been?". But how many actually pause and wait for the answer and is actually concerned about his friend's reply. I don't know man. Cos when you asked that, you'll be expecting a "I'm fine." reply and that happens 99.9%. And then you move on to the next topic. But what if that guy replies you "Not good." You'll be like, 'Fuck, what am I gonna say next'. Well, if you know me, you know I don't ask how are you except to my close friends cos I mean it when I asked.

And when people ask you "How are you?", how many will reply "I'm fine." and mean it. I gotta admit I'm one of those who says I'm fine but even though I'm not. (Although most of the time I am fine. (:) Cos I wouldn't say I'm not fine to a random friend and tell them the whole shit that happened and expect them to really give a damn about it. Or actually, I'm not the type that'll tell others stuffs unless they ask. Most of time, I wouldn't tell even if they ask. But that's just me. Haha.

And there's actually one more thing I wanna mention but I forgot. Dammit. My memory is failing me. Haha. I shall edit it when I remember, if I remember!

Comments

2011-05-05T19:55:00.000+08:00

I've been trying to enable comments for every entry. But it don't seem to be working out well for me. ):

Anyone can help me out? I've already tried allowing readers' comment at the post option, but it's still not appearing. ):

Good night world.

2011-05-04T03:18:00.000+08:00

I honestly think that a single bed is not enough for me to sleep. I need like a double king sized bed, such that I can roll around here and there and be satisfied. What with all my soft toys and pillows all around me and I hate waking up in the morning to see my stuffs lying all over the floor cos it feels like they committed suicide. Ya get what I tryna say here?

GE.

2011-05-02T00:37:00.002+08:00

Just wanna share this with my course mates. Look who's talking in the video! Haha.

But gotta say I agree with her on the part where the government always throw Kaki Bukit around every election. What is this man. Happy throw us to Eunos. Not happy throw us to East Coast. Now throw us to Aljunied. Aljunied and Bedok like not near at all please!

But looking at this year's election, thank god I don't have to vote man. It's tough.

Deal? No.

2011-04-08T00:01:00.001+08:00

This is something unexpected.

I was about to bath when I suddenly challenged mummy to see who's faster in bathing. And the rule was that we both had to wash our hair. Told her not to cheat and all, but I sorta cheated cos I went in earlier. Haha. I confidently think I'd win! But hell, I was wrong. I LOST! But I was so near to winninggggg. Dammit. I demand a rematch next time! Haha.

Spend the whole day with mummy in the kitchen today. Hehe. It was a normal yet fulfilling day to me. (: She even accompanied me in watching Pretty Little Liars (Well, I was catching up what I missed since episode 15) even though she had no idea what's going on in the show. Haha. Her first comment was, the girls damn pretty. I can't disagree much to that. (:

And there was this joke about money. Ahma keeps saying that government's giving out money and all. Then my friend texted me said he got 700 bucks. So I told mummy since she was beside me. And mummy was like, "ask him give you half lar, 350." She even predicted what he'll reply and said, "if he says take from me, then tell him that if he gives half, I'll give him half of ours (which is 300 bucks). " Then she laughs and say, "like that we earn 50 bucks." LOL. But it was not deal.

But of course, she said everything in mandarin. Mummy is cool man.

2 or 3?

2011-04-04T19:03:00.000+08:00

It's funny how English and Chinese clashes sometimes, but refer to te same meaning.

In English, we usually say 'think twice before doing anything'. But in mandarin, we say '三思而后行' which means 'think thrice before doing anything'.

Haha. Just a random thought. Teehee.

Whatever will be, will be.

2011-04-02T22:45:00.004+08:00

I remembered I love this song when I first heard it when I was in kindergarten. For some reason this song came up to me today. Like randomly, it was singing in my head. Hahaha! So let's share it with everyone!

Today started off horribly. I was suppose to meet a friend in the morning before going for high ropes at Ubin, but she didn't turn up. And this feeling just sucks a lot for me cos it feels like I'm being forgotten. And I really really dislike this feeling. Cos it reminds me of my dad. Sometimes I can't help but wonder if he still remembers me. A little part of me still hopes that when I wake up one day, I realize that he has never left. But well, it's not gonna happen anyway.

And end up throughout the whole journey to Changi Point Ferry Terminal, I kept thinking of him. And I thought today was gonna suck big time. But thank god my friends can always make me laugh without phail. (:

And I really really don't blame my friend for not turning up cos I know she didn't mean it. (: So if you're reading, IT'S OKAY! (:

Camp Tomorrow

2011-03-06T22:52:00.001+08:00

I know it's blur. But it's the only one I have.

~~5 days; 2 camps.~~

6 days; 3 camps.
Kinda excited. (;

Kinda lazy. :/

Kinda tired. :x

Can't believe I'm saying this but, for the money.

远方

2011-03-06T01:56:00.002+08:00

Decided to share this song with everyone. It has been one of my favorites since I first heard it. And it still is now. (:

This is the theme song for 梁山伯与祝英台 (The Butterfly Lovers) which is also known as the chinese version of Romeo and Juliet. In case you don't know the story: Legend is that YingTai ("Juliet") dressed up as a guy so that she can attend a school where she met ShanBo ("Romeo") and they fell in love. But their relationship was not approved due to family backgrounds. When Shanbo passed away due to his deteriorating health, YingTai soon committed suicide at ShanBo's tomb. And both of them turned into a pair of butterflies.

It's a damn awesome show, if you have not watch, you should. But the sad thing is, I don't see it available at any dvd/vcd stores. So can only resort to online. If not, I'll definitely own one copy. Haha.

What I like about it is the lyrics actually. In the show, ShanBo is a scholar. Hence, the lyrics for the male singer has more 'depth' where it uses idioms. For the female's lyrics, it basically writes about her feelings that'll touch you.

ANYWAY. I'm sharing it cos I love this song. It's not a new song, but who cares. It's nice. That's all that matters.

Clear Your Shits

2011-02-27T12:47:00.000+08:00

Night study at airport.

I came to realize a point. That Singaporeans ought to learn to clear their own trays. It's shameful to see tourists helping you to clear your mess. But before I get to tweet it, I saw 2 other tourists eating peanuts and making a mess on their table. Oh well.

But then again, is it really so hard to clear our own trays? It's like after you shit you gotta clean your ass; after you eat, you gotta clear your tray!

formspring.me

2011-02-25T23:41:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/allyallym

Ball Pool

2011-02-25T01:11:00.000+08:00

When was the last time I played in a ball pool?

Went to buy Stickies after work today, with Michelle. I know, I'm crazy to work in this period of time. But I just felt like doing so and we just gotta do some crazy stuffs once in a while. It's healthy. (: Hehs. It's exam period in case you don't already know.

But anyway, we were watching the guy make the sweet, and he gave all of us one, just out from the oven! We ate it when it was still warm! HAHA. Cool shit I tell you.

Talking to the moon

2011-02-24T00:33:00.004+08:00

Nice Song. (:

April Fool?

2011-02-07T20:33:00.001+08:00

Up until now, I still hope that someone will come to me and tell me it's april fool today. Or let me sleep and wake up and realize that it's all just a nightmare.

I couldn't sleep last night, I knew something was gonna happen. I overheard Mummy's conversation and knew nothing good about it. I just hope it's but a prank.

I'm so worried for my sister...

人是不是不能太幸福

是不是太幸福幸福就会被夺走

我好害怕下一秒又有谁会从身边消失

Happy New Year?

2011-02-03T14:35:00.004+08:00

When we were little kids, new year is like a big thing to us. Even before the new year eve, the new year atmosphere lingers around us. And it's like the day we look forward to every year. But now, as we grow older, we start to get sick of new year. We always complain we can't feel the new year atmosphere.

Usually, we blame it on the money. But it's just an excuse. At least for me, it is.

After so many years, to me, new year has lost its purpose. When I was young, we do visiting with my daddy's side relatives. Honestly, that was my happiest new year every year. Then, due to some reasons, I stopped going over. That was when my happy new year ended.

I always tell people my new year damn relax cos I don't need to go visiting. Relatives will go to my Ahma's house, and all I need to do is to go over to my Ahma's house which is next door. But I rather have a packed new year going around visiting relatives. The hellos and goodbyes, the anticipation of who you will meet during visits makes new year worthwhile.

But now, my new year is so predictable. Even the relatives that will come on Day 1 and 2 are predictable. I even have the time to blog now.

There was also this period of time when I used to really really hate new year. Because when this time comes, I'll have to make a choice. And for so many years, I didn't listen to my heart. Every year, my uncle (daddy's side) will text me to invite me over to their house for visiting. When I was younger, I didn't have to face it. I just went and that was the happiest new year ever.

But eventually, we all grow up. Soon, I was force to make a choice every year. To go or not to go. I always wanted to go. But I know that Mummy might not be happy about it even though she doesn't say so. So I chose not to go. And soon, we lost contact. Since we lost contact, I don't have to make a choice anymore. But my new year never got any better. Every year, I had to face my guilt of not visiting, how unfilial I felt towards my daddy's side ahma.

But screw this shit. I am going to visit them this year. This year onwards, I hope new year gets better for me. At least I don't have to dread new year anymore.

天下没有不散的宴席

就因宴席有聚有散才值得珍惜

And as much as I don't wanna blog,

cos I don't want the picture(below) to disappear,

I can't just leave my blog to day. Haha. xPP

Falling In ♥!

2011-01-24T15:01:00.000+08:00

I get motivated whenever I see this. (: Lock Screensaver ((((:

2011-01-22T04:28:00.008+08:00

Limiting our report is like limiting our answers which is like limiting our results which is like expanding our problem which is like killing our brain which is like stealing our sleep cos we gotta sacrifice our sleep to crack our brains to shorten our answers to limit our report.

Hold papa hand!

2010-12-12T16:37:00.003+08:00

A father talking to his kid.

"Must hold papa hand"
"Lai, must hold papa hand, understand?"
Apparently ignored.
"Hello, hello. Must hold papa hand."
"Hold papa hand"

HAHAHAHA! So cute.

Defining Moments

2010-12-07T23:46:00.003+08:00

Love him. Love his songs. ROCKKKKK~

ONE.

While waiting for the lift.

Atikah was talking about shit and we were laughing kinda loudly when a tutor came out from the toilet and waited for the lift too. We just looked at him and burst out laughing cos he heard everything that we said which WAS embarassing.

Tutor: I'll just close my ears and pretend I never hear anything.

*laughs

Tutor: Which course are you guys from?

Us: Errr. lrm.

Tutor: I seeeeee.

*enters the lifts

At another level, LAW tutors came in. ATIKAH has to know the tutor.

Law tutor: (looks at Atikah) you're law student right?

Atikah: YAH!

AWKWARD SILENCE. And we burst out laughing again.

ATIKAH SUCK MAN. HAHAHA.

TWO.

Waiting for the cargo lift at level 1. The lift was at level 2, going up all the way to level 6 and down to level 1. (And it stops at every level.) After 7 minutes or so, the lift finally came. The door opened. A man walked out, brought out the "life under repair" sign!

And we had to take the stairs instead. After we reached our level, we saw the lift STILL working well. Was that a prank or what!? HAHA. goshhhhh.

back to company law now. ):

活得优雅些

2010-11-30T19:37:00.001+08:00

也许你的生活并不富裕;
也许你的工作不够好;
也许你正处在困境中;
也许你被情所弃。

不论什么原因，出门时，
一定要让自己面带微笑，
从容自若地去面对生活。

只要你自己真正撑起来了，
别人无论如何是压不垮你的，
内心的强大才是真正的强大。

- 微博经典语录

BAM!

2010-11-18T00:39:00.000+08:00

We were dancing on a Saturday night!

IT ENDEDDDDDDDDD. ): And now, everyone's like suffering from musical withdrawal symptoms! ))):

Time wait for no man. But I'm glad we all gave our best! At least when we look back, we're not gonna regret the time we spent! But am gonna miss those days so muchhhhh man! <3! My favorite song from the musical is ROSE OF LOVE. It just speaks to me the most.

Actually I wanted to rant in my blog for the past few days (during the musical), but it delayed. And I'm not that pissed anymore, so shall spare you guys from it! Then again, I just gotta accept the fact that not everyone will commit as much as we do. We just gotta do our best and not regret! (:

PC <3 YO!

Identity Crisis

2010-11-08T04:27:00.004+08:00

Disclaimer: This post is totally fictional. Whatever written here is just for fun. And it's because I owe this post to a friend. (: I think he totally forgot about it anyway. So just read and laugh it off. xD

ketchup

2010-11-08T03:32:00.001+08:00

Everyone's starting to complain that my blog is dead. And it's funny how these complaints all come at the same time. Or did you guys planned to do it together at the same time? Haha. Still, am glad that people still visit though ~~it's dead~~. Was dead. xD

Last saturday, I got a chance to visit Bukit Gombak Home where those stabilised mental patients who have nowhere to go stays. And I gotta say that they were awesome much! The client that I got to interact with is a diver! How fucking cool is that. He showed us a picture of his painting, no lines at all, pure painting and he painted a scenery. This is definitely one dude with artistic talent. We were suppose to cook green bean soup together, but end up, he taught us how to cook it instead. Epic failure, I know. Haha. Well, you know me, kitchen is so not my place. I only know how to cook instant noodles! Take it or leave it! Haha. But anyways, glad to see that they are all happy and catching up with their lives.

Which led me to a thought: seems that most talented people usually suffers from disorders. It's like god's way of saying nobody's perfect.

That day was really enriching for me, despite the upcoming musical which took away half my life (talk about it later), I haven't had this experience in a while and it reminded me how much I loved to see others smile. I get be involve in this was because of a course I took, Mental Health First Aid. From it, I was aware of the stigma that's in our society, the myths and the discriminations that's been going on. And all these boils down to one word: education. I think that mental health knowledge, like the yellow ribbon or even sex education, should be equipped to everyone. By the way, there's a silver ribbon campaign for to raise awareness for mental health.

And I also know that if I continue, I'm gonna bore you guys. But my point is, don't fear them, care for them. They're not scary, not monsters nor aliens. They're just like me and you - human with emotions.

Let's move on to something light! TP MUSICAL! This is what that's been keeping me busy. And no, me ain't performing so don't open your mouth just yet. I prefer to contribute quietly behind the scenes. I've seen the musical during the rehearsals and you won't be disappointed. The songs, scripts, everything about it is original! And they're amazing! I was kinda hoping they'll like record the songs in a soundtrack and sell it or something. It'll earn. It's a little late that I'm promoting now, cos the tickets are all sold out! So if you haven't get it, then too bad. Unless maybe you know the casts, they can invite you to tomorrow's rehearsal. (((:

Although this musical's been keeping me in school for 12 hours daily, I don't hate it. I gotta say that the musical made me love PC more cos of the bondings that we've developed over the weeks. I forgot how good it feels to be "all in this together".

Okay. I shall stop here. My internet's pissing me off and it broke my train of thoughts.

This haze is taking its toll on us.

2010-10-23T23:45:00.004+08:00

Hate it when people do things that'll harm the nature and our home. Burning the forest doesn't solve any problems you have, dudes! It'll just create more problems for everyone.

用我们的方式表现我们的不满或许大家都忘了唇亡齿寒了吧

Gone are the days

2010-10-19T05:04:00.002+08:00

of summer, we wouldn't change it if we could.

小时候我们都活在自己的世界里不须要像任何人交代也不在乎外人的眼光只有尽情享受快乐的时光

I was once like them. Then, at that moment, we were in our own world. A world where trouble ceases and worries extinct, the only thing that mattered was to get ourselves soaked from head to toe before the water goes off. And that meant the world to us, at that moment. Even though we were the center of attention and we had no clean clothes to change, it did not matter cos who cares? I didn't. And that was the time, when we live the best of our lives and laughed our hearts out. That joy was pure.

Today, I miss that me who once had that pure joy.

长大了自知了

不再为自己而快乐

不再为快乐而活

快乐也不再是理所当然的了

Dear elevator,

2010-10-15T04:29:00.000+08:00

Must you do this to me?

With love,

Neighbour

tell me about it.

2010-09-26T03:47:00.001+08:00

HEY DUDE!

2010-09-24T01:48:00.002+08:00

I realize I like to call people dude because people like to call me dude! But hey, I'm not a dude, dude! But whatever, so peace out DUDES!

To you; with love.

2010-09-16T02:06:00.003+08:00

THE PAOMNNEHAL PWEOR OF THE HMUAN MNID

2010-09-16T02:03:00.000+08:00

Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervstiy, it deson't mttear in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprtmoant tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can siltl raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is becusae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteetr by isltef, but the word as a wlohe.

Amzanig huh.

It's never too late to be what you might have been.

2010-09-02T03:53:00.001+08:00

Came across this quote in my notebook that I used for my CIBTC back then.

I was clearing my bedroom (abit.) and found 2 books. It's the notebooks I used for my CIBTC back in 2008. Actually, I forgotten that I had written so much stuffs during course. There's this page where I wrote all my instructors names cos we gotta remember everyone's name and you know me, always have a problem linking names to faces. So I drew some stuffs beside some names to help me remember them. HAHAHA. Memories man.

You know, when you're in camp or courses, there are times when you're serious and determined. And there are times you just wanna slack and don't give a damn. I had one of the latter experience recored down in my notebook even. Cos the title of the page was 'squad debrief' and what written inside has TOTALLY NOTHING TO DO WITH what the title says. HAHAHA. Amazingggggg.

Am gonna keep it for lifeeeeee.

Anyway, I've been regretting over things that I didn't do recently. Finding these books really helped me cos of the quotes that were written inside. It's never too late to be what I might have been, as long as I start. I just gotta find a way to start. In life, we make wrong decisions a lotsa time too. I just gotta live with it and, ya know, try not to make another one.

Nowhere Near Anywhere

2010-08-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

Bright and early for the daily races, going nowhere, going nowhere.

- Mad World, Adam Lambert

Gonna be 18 soon. Looking back, I've done lots of things. But I have tons of others things that I haven't done. Things that I've been wanting to do since young. Things that I'm losing hope about.

I'm just like any other person out there. Thought I was going somewhere, but ended up nowhere, doing nothing. Friends around me, they're living their dreams everyday. And me, well I just keep on live my dreams in my dreams. I hate myself for doing the things that I want. Hate watching me wasting my time away.

I see myself making choices that I regret alot. I wish life is like a game. Once I make a wrong move, I can undo my move, or press reset button and start all over again. It'll be like the Game of Life.

Maybe I just need some new directions, new hopes. Or maybe, I needa figure out what I really want.

Give me 5s!

2010-08-09T05:48:00.002+08:00

Was that a star or satellite? It's the fireworks!

Some interesting facts I stumble across this morning!

August 2010 has 5 Sundays, 5 Mondays and 5 Tuesdays.
May 2010 has 5 Saturdays, 5 Sundays and 5 Mondays.
July 2010 has 5 Thursday, 5 Fridays and 5 Saturdays.
December 2010 has 5 Wednesdays, 5 Thursday and 5 Fridays.

It seems like this year has more than 365 days. -.- HAHA. But rumours says that this happened like once in 823 years? I don't know if it's true. Got no time to find out. Prolly research about it tonight when I get home! Promise! For the meantime, maybe check this out. And I know I still have a post owing.

Btw, it's National Day today yo! Erryone, let's get out there and kick some asses tonight! But I still haven't thought of a post for National Day. This is last year's. Maybe I'll think of something along the way? I don't wanna repeat last year's post. So, IDEAS?

Balance of Things

2010-07-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

Be careful not to mess with the balance of things. - WOWP, Selena Gomez

When good days ain't that good anymore.
When awesome ain't that awesome anymore.
When sweet dreams ain't sweet anymore.
When the poor ain't poor anymore.
When the hungry ain't hungry anymore.

When the worst days don't suck at all.
When nightmares don't scare at all.
When bullies don't bully at all.
When bad guys don't harm at all.
When hearts don't break at all.

Know that the world has come to an end.
It's like the calm sea before the tsunami strikes.

Source: http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l63shwMPNb1qzu1fjo1_500.jpg

Give some APPLES, people!

2010-07-26T06:27:00.002+08:00

I need inspirations for my entries!! They're so normal right now! ):

在这离别的时候－古巨基
握着你的手
我要走不能走
简单的再见兩个字
我说不出口

你那痴痴的眼光
诉说着无尽的哀愁
最痛心处
是你努力让笑容依旧

我听到我的心跳
一再说着不走不走

在这离別的时候
风也溫柔云也溫柔
我眼里有千千万万个你
每个你都是溫柔

我恨自己不夠潇洒
为什么一步一回头
我听到我们的心跳　
像是天籁的合奏
一再说着相守相守相守

我还是必须走
我松了你的手
简单的爱你兩个字
我说不出口

看着你的眼睛
湧上了无尽的溫柔
最伤心处
是你努力让泪水停留

我听到你的心跳
一再说着別走別走

在这离別的時候
风也溫柔云也溫柔
我眼裡有千千万万个你
每个你都是溫柔

我恨自己不夠潇洒
为什么一步一回头
我听到我们的心跳　
像是天籟的合奏
一再说着相守相守相守

Came across this song while I was watching 还珠格格 and I can't help but love it! I remember when I was so into this singer back then when I first watched the show. Love his voice. He's cool, people. You gotta love this, or you got no love. kidding, haha.

, baby!

http://26.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l61utfa3sy1qb68dko1_500.jpg